Anothen day... i dun really feel so piss after hours of cooling down and a nice shower.
2day i was more sad and upset with myself more than anything.

i love to lead.. i love being captain ... and stuff. but y dun ppl give me the due respect?. do u think itz so easy doing wad i do?.

authorative-me like totally wtf? if i dun yell at u do u think the message will get into ur head. being badminton vice captain is nt easy esp when the ex vice captain intentionally makes things difficult and the captain is the good guy and acts according to everyone favour. it totally sucks being the bad guy i hate it. even the coach is like the nicer guy than me. but the captain and coach aren't to blame. the ppl r to blame. saying i think i'm so big and can command them. i had enough!!!!!!!
YES i think I M BIG! CUZ I m ur BLOODY vice captain boyz. if u think u re gd enough. beat me and take over my position. i had enough. i yell at all 19 of u . itz 1 vs 19. fair? and i'm the one always to blame. cant u juz give me tht respect of tht small time a week for badminton. u think i enjoy scolding and shoutin u guyz?? i dun! i hate it cuz if u hate me i will lose a friend and my greatest fear is loneliness.... but wad m i to do... play the good gy and no one is the bad guy and wad, this whole badminton team will b like shit?. i'm the bad guy. plz give me the bloody due respect.

i totally feel like such a failure. thanx coach and quan to hear me out on my part. i hve to admit i was retracting the tears as i talked abt my problems. mayb i'm too much of a perfectionist. wantin the badminton team to b like wad i see on tv. reality is hard. reality is painful!

U!BASTARD! u bloody guy. y r u like tht. i cant take u anymore controllin myself over someone like u ...plz look at the mirror and discover urself and top it off with a lil smethin called maturity!. u noe u are no different wif a baby tht can talk? GOD! i've told u many times nicely but u shut me up so quickly and answer with the most FAKE dun care attitude. i thank u for havin a lil due respect for me sometimes but plz change... PLZ!!! change ur way of thinkin.. stop always puttin on tht mask.. take it off show urself... u re a nice guy. tht mask is really doin u no good. ALSO tht ARROGANT behaviour really cheeses ppl off k... HUMBLE PLZ!!! i mean.. u r like super arrogant and proub.. can u juz smetimes keep it to urself n celebrate with urself.

talkin bout tht i was so depress when i came home and like i went to buy delifrance bread. and while outside the hse i told my maid to like keep it and like give me for breakfast 2morrow. she said ok... n i told her to make sure my bro doesn't see it. cuz he will finish it like in 1 min. bout tht freakin maid.. when we were havin dinner came out wif the bread and said.. junhung which bread u want for breakfast?? and then my brother saw and was like i want the crossiant. then i was like ok hve 1.... then i told her to keep it... then she still stand there and say which kind which kind... then still stand there say fridge or microwave.. i WAS SO PISSED!!! i like slamm my utensils and like stomp my way up the stairs... how freakin hell idiotic ppl can b!!!! ARGH